Sometimes you get one of those lightbulb moments…
It’s finally dawned on me that one of the main reasons I have problems getting started is that I have no clear sense of stop. I have so much to do – work, degree, diploma, hobbies, domesticity, life – that it’s all too easy to see life as one unending to-do list – even when half the list is meant to be fun!
More, I really WANT to do all this stuff. I crave being brilliant at something again, and would love to just absorb so much knowledge and skill that I can shine with it. So surely the more I can pack into my day the better?! It seems my mindset has always been one of the more I can do now, the more I can get ahead, the sooner I can get finished. Except, it really doesn’t work – particularly when I struggle so hard to start in the first place! Then I get stressed, and I pack it all in, and oh look – time to fall over.
So how about this: set up my schedule (now -> exam/assignment deadline/weekend!) and just work at sticking to it. Deciding I’m doing one chapter’s revision and one sub-question on the assignment and then putting it all down and doing what I like is – surprise surprise! – a damn sight more motivating. Strange that, eh?
For this week, then, the goal is to do what I have written down as this week’s workload, and be satisfied that it’s enough. Sure, there’s more to be done, but that is the point of making timetables – which I think I’ve always missed!